The Wisdom of Pain

The lesson i learnt was like,
a million words of wisdom put together.
The emptiness of the darkness was fighting,
to win the battle over my empty heart.
The fall of the evening,
the clear sky after the rain.
The silence of the night,
could make me go deaf.
Oh! How i wish it would,
so the cluster of voices screaming in my head,
would stop at once.
Tears keep pouring down,
making a messy puddle over my eyes.
A voice in my head,
Politely called my name, and said
"The world around you is at its brightest best,
Then why are you drowned in a colourless palett?"
I looked up in the mirror,
trying to make myself visible
making way through the clouds on my eyes.
"The PAIN....i said is too much to bear,
The courage has been pushed off the cliff,
The pain, i say...the one that the most dears ones,
the people you trust in..cause."
"CLOSE ones? shes laughes,
The only close one is God"
and the voice drifts away,
As if what she said,
just gave my soul a new light.
Like the god's answer,
to all my questions.
Who is perfect?...
neither you, nor i,
People will come and go,
and just the mix of right and wrong ones,
But they will be the ones,
your greatest teachers.
They will teach and move on,
As same as a wound that causes pain,
and dissapears in a while,
but leaves a mark on your life.
These innumerous marks,
will make you think about,
the choices you made.
But they would be something you call your own,
and yes i would say,
Pain is your greatest teacher!
The lesson i learnt is like,
a thousand words of wisdom put together.
and the answer lies within you.

The smile, coffee and love....

Sitting by the window once,
Sipping the warm, relaxing cup of coffee,
Stirring in the sugar, she smiles to herself,
The twinkle in her eyes makes me wonder,
Is it someting i said, or just the coffee?
Or something which is on her mind,
for quite sometime now.
Nothing! she replys to me
with the same sweet smile
and gets lost in the coffee
There has to be something,
which makes her glow,
the blush on her cheeks,
looks like roses lent her some.
But i still have the confused look,
and then, just like that
She looks at me in the eye,
Those eyes, i never realised,
were so clear and deep,
I raised an eyebrow,
like silently saying, say something now!
And just before she says something
a beautiful crystal tear,
trickles down her eye
paving way through the blush.
And finally she says,
Have you ever been in love..
with someone you know you can't be with?
I look at her dumbstruck
as she looks away,
her lips part into a smile,
The crystal tears loses identity,
But there's got to be some way,
but you can, he can, what,but....
Nothing really made sense,
I wish i could help,
But how?
She looks outside the window,
and hums a song,
I know those lyrics, and the song by James Blunt
"But its time to face the truth,
I will never be with you"
No i don't think she is insane,
The smile on her face made me realise,
Love never keeps the condition of
being with the one you love,
Funny how she affected my life in
just a few minutes,
and just then i realised
the coffee had gone cold,
But it didn't matter anymore....
The lesson i learnt had left
warmth in my heart!!

The Unspoken silence

Can you believe it? He says,
And smiles sheepishly.
Narrating to me an incident,
I look back and smile,
Not because of the incident,
But seeing the gleam in his eye.
The eyes had school boy innocence,
I could look into them for hours
And not flutter my eyes even once.
As he drives, paying attention to the road,
I steal glances at him,
Hoping he wouldn’t catch me red handed
Whoever said loves leads to insomnia,
Must have been on sleeping pills,
Because that was the case with me!
As much I was treasuring my time with him,
I would wish the time to stand still.
Even though the sun was high up in the sky,
The sun of this moment was about to set soon.
I wish this moment had just started,
A prayer of hope against hope,
As the car stops,
The engine goes off
The beauty of the silence is broken
By rain drops on the car,
Millions of rain drops,
Chatting with each other
As the gods above,
Clash their challis, causing thunderstorm
I look at him and say
‘This is it’, and bid adieu
And just before I go out,
I look back,
For that one school boy smile,
Those innocent eyes
Just one last time,
One last hug,
One last good bye,
One last promise,
Mercy god, one last moment.
Take care, he says,
I was hoping you would, I say to myself,
You too, I say
I walk out, destiny I say,
We were never meant to be,
As my footsteps match the rhythm of the rain drops,
I re-quote the quote,
I love walking in the rain, coz no one can see me crying.